omg omg omg omg. another year gone. almost. soon. Spending this afternoon in my comfy room blogging. Thinking, reflecting. It is more than a summary of events, it is what i have learnt from this past year and learn from the people whom i met. I did have my many doubts after 2005's O levels as it marked an end to a wonderful journey and experience in SJI, my secondary school, SJIMB, my wonderful band with experiences which i knew i cldnt get anywhere else, painful at times, enjoyable most of the time, political also. Being a man of integrity and a man for others with good values. i leave SJI with that in practise always and the SJI experience has made me a more matured and objective person.

I was a person who did not pass my prelims so going to a JC during my first 3 mths was a nono. Guess i din work hard enough then. Hack. It's over cause it led me to do other better things. My father's friend El, who is a psycho therapist, bachelor and a really passionate and great human being became sort of like my mentor. That was when my learning journey out of sec sch began. He introduced me to Network Marketing and Nikken which i decided to eventually join, had too much time in the world, so i thought y not. Seemed like a feasible and good way to earn money also, din wanna go to mac's to work because don't see much point + little experiences + dun really like working FOR others. Was intrigued with the company's philosophy of gaining balance and total wellness in our lives through the 5 pillars of health namely, body,mind, family, society and finances. Got to know El better and yea he taught me a lot of things, from how to be a better person (he studied psychology afterall), how to deal with certain problems in simple ways, being a real friend indeed. Most important thing i learnt was the Law of Attraction- What u think, you feel, you attract more later on, things will materialise and become. Much more to that but i got so much more to type. Haha wasnt really successful at MLM because of how i dealt with things, learning the ropes to much and not much effort was taken to realise my goals. Everything was in place, all i had to do was talk and get people but not many people to talk to and it seemed i din have the flair or passion for it (neither the contacts) somemore if i were to sell, i did not wanna hard sell, kinda spoils relationships and i want to build relationships not spoil them. Yes, there were ways to do it but i din seem to execute it well, so din even earn but at least i got a good friend and learn many life values. Actually because of MLM, i decided to learn more about business and that made me decide to do business in NP, actually wanted to do tourism at first but haha luckily i got rejected? JC was out of my mind then because i wanna make the best and wise choice for myself, besides why study so hard for subjects that you are not interested about again and even more in depth in JC? I wanted more freedom, busy is ok, but more fun, interesting, engaging, enriching and more RELAXED rather than STRESSED. Had enough of it (TOO MUCH STRESS) in the academics in sec sch, din wanna repeat it thus my choice to join NP, wasnt sucha tough decision afterall, it was the only open house that i went to since i heard that its business school was the best and also had the privilege because my father supported me in anything i wanna do, so everything was at the mercy of my results which i was confident of.

Just nice L1R4 got 13 while cutoff for BS in NP was 14. Great to get in. Ready to go to my new school meet new friends, know new people and of course interact with girls, 16 years and i had only minimal contact with girls in my age group. My social contact is mainly with guys all those time, 10 years in a boy's sch what you expect. =P. The Best place to learn things is the Best poly, Ngee Ann Poly. So this new beginning began. Since my school did not advertise about poly, din know much about it, how they carried out things. Hack, i wanted to attract all that was good, great wonderful and fun! I also wanted to be the best, do the best and have the best. Nth is perfect but i din mind coming close to perfect also =). So i thought and mapped out what i wanted to do in NP. Becoming a nerd is not me, so i didnt just want to focus on study alone, boring isnt that. I Had to make more expand my social circle, do more things, meaningful things to improve myself and society. Was totally spoilt for choice so many ccas to choose from, only can pick what i thought i could handle. Ended up with 3 at first. 2 business related SIFE and YEN. Thought that was enough. haha Good Choices. Made quite a few good friends in Class, though not very close friends. There is this separation in my class. Boys 1 side, Girls another side, started to question whether it was normal. Rarely do the boys hang out with the girls before or after the class, vice versa. Ended up with an All Boys Project Group also. Just felt more comfortable with each other i guess? I really wanna thank God and my fate for having all great classmates, mostly introverted but are very nice souls with no trouble at all. my project group also rocks, everyone cooperates and want to complete the work, in the end we end up with good grades as well. Tapping on each others strengths and bringing about results =). Then again, i REALLY wanted a good class, visualised it and it somehow materialised. so a SHOUT OUT! THANK YOU Tb27 for being nice people in my lives!

It was through my CCAs that i met my close friends who really share the same interests and hang out much of the time with one another. weird thing was how i met Josh. another "Fated Accident" i guess. Sat beside him during lecture, ended up talking, discovered his was a business freak, really into it. He worked in what Just Media and had Ken as his mentor. During that time, i went to a seminar like weeks before i even met josh and actually Listened to this Ken fella, oh boy was he a good speaker. Then suddenly the experiences converged because i was interested in the EAP programme that Executive Directions was promoting and promoting real HARD. then this Josh said he knew the owners of the companies and he was even one of their consultants before. i was like WoW. what a small world? I also found out that he replied to my posts on hardwarezone on the Best Business Poly in SG, now that's freaky. From the way he speaks i already knew he was different in thinking from anyone else i have known before. Besides, he loves to do his best and WIN. Love that attitude and i wanted to cultivate it too, so hanging out with him meant that i could learn a lot and also grow further. Got to know more about him and yea another life changing experience. It is so funny how individuals u meet can kinda change the way you think, consider and do things, my eyes are now opened bigger about business somehow he helped me to do so. Discovered he also joined SIFE and YEN, introduced me to toastmasters which looked for me as i was looking for a public speaking training course and Leo Club because i wanted to do Community Service and from there met even more motivated and distinguished individuals. Jackson Soh followed. Engineering fella who is full of energy and another funny character. Soon we hang out a lot with each other because of Leo club mainly but also the desire to do other things. The idea of achieving and being more that what we are now in life captured us, it is intrinsic afterall. I just had the mindset of achieving more and strive to be the best when i entered NP and everything seemed to fall into place, the people i meet and the things i can participate and do. Not bad, more talented people came into my life. Kenny, CK, Jeremy, Max, Christopher, Dong Yue, Cliff, etc etc. numbers are growing. Kenny and CK are year 1's who are also quite active in the CCAs we're in and have the same " I wanna do More " attitude for not only themselves but others as well. Great Guys to hang out with. You must be wondering, why am i only talking about guys? Where are the girls? Actually, I also wanna know the ans to that question, WHERE ARE THE GIRLS??? So far, those who i can consider quite or not quite close to are Chloe, Lizhen, Kaishin, and some others from Leo club. Knowing them is cool too. Recently the new people who joined Leo Club were Liching, Nellie, Tricia and Peixuan, Tricia is my project and classmate for 1 class and meeting her is also another fateful encounter. Not really close to Chloe, Liching, Lizhen and Peixuan. Got to know more about Nellie recently these few weeks, became my chronic chat buddy... all started from smthng... i cannot reveal in public =). Yar so these are the close people who came into my life and really had good fun knowing them and hope to know them even more and learn from each other as well. THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU FOR COMING INTO MY LIFE!

Now, I really feel that i have learnt so much more in poly in such a short period of less than a year. This year, my lucky star seems up, really not much trouble, only great encounters and experiences. From people, family friends to teachers to sch mates. My hunger to learn even more has grown as i am given countless number of opportunities to grab hold of in and out of poly. I want to develop more skills, increase my ability to handle tasks much better, solve problems, put in more and more effort in my life and the things i want and gonna do. Put in my utmost best and full focus on tasks ranging from small to big. i wanna have dreams, strive for achievement in everthing i do, create better relationships with people, find more love in this world, more love for each other, the things we do and of course the world and the environment. The process of learning is nvr ending, all i have to do for next year is to choose what i wanna learn, why i want to learn it, whether it is worth learning in my life as i will take up precious time to do so, and HOW am i gonna learn and get the best and most out of the particular subject, value or skills. Knowledge X Ability X Effort = Great Results. Gotta apply that man. Overall, This year is another stepping stone in my life and it has indeed changed the course of my life because of the decisions i make and the effort i put into things, also influenced by the people i meet and have met, my values of being open minded to people and their abilites, accepting them for who they are also made me become more empathetic and as well as be responsible for how i respond to them, people will notice how you make them feel, not what u do =). Well its time to get organised and really plan for next year, i want the next year to be another year of Growth, focused growth, gonna start the engine and now travel to the goals.

Goals and Resolutions for 2007

1. Once again, Academics i will aim for GPA 4.0 and ALL AD's. Anything less will be at least an A
2. CCA points of 72 ( GOLD ) by the End of Sem holidays for Year 1
3. Read at least 1-3 Books Per week on Business, Personal Development, Healthy Living
4. Spend 30 mins reading the newspapers EVERYDAY
5. Perfecting my skills of Public Speaking and Archery
6. Competitions, Competitions and more COMPETITIONS, in school or outside of school Strive
to win each and every one.
7. Build a team of enthusiastic and driven individuals to finish all school projects before date
due with quality
8. Make more friends who are girls
9. Help my father be more organised and create more income using his skills
10. Join an outside activity that helps society more, youth stuff

Currently these are my Goals, more to come if i suddenly think of any.

Well Goodbye 2006 and Hello Lovely 2007. It's a Start of Something New!

Updated@12/31/2006 06:21:00 PM

Another dream, another day
I've seen too many fade away
So if you wonder how to make it right
Give me everything, everything tonight

Cause I don't want to be lonely no more
I don't want to feel empty no more
Only you could unbreak this heartache I've carried around
Don't wanna be lonely no more, no more

Take me in, take me home
I can't stand to be alone
Help me paint the picture of my life
Don't you disappear and leave me here tonight

Cause [sung with background vocals] I don't want to be lonely no more
I don't want to feel empty no more
Only you could unbreak this heartache I've carried around
Don't wanna be lonely no more, no more [end background vocals]

Can't make no sense of life ([background vocals:] Make no sense of life)
No matter how I try
Cause something's missing in my heart, tonight.

[sung with background vocals] I don't want to be lonely no more
I don't want to feel ([overlap:] I don't wanna be lonely) empty no more
Only you could unbreak this heartache I've carried around
Don't wanna be lonely no more....no more

I don't wanna be lonely no more
I don't want to be empty no more
And only you could unbreak this heartache I've carried around
Don't wanna be lonely no more...no more....no more

Lonley No More by Clay Aiken

This is how i feel right now...

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Hrmm ok the weekend was quite nice... it is the season of giving after all!
Lets see, i have been receiving presents, like 3 presents. So fortunate to even get presents. Still so many people in the world who wouldn't live to even know what Christmas is about and the Joy of Giving. Haiz. Read on Saturday's Newspaper... There is so much Turmoil in the World, can PEACE ever be found? Scary Statistics of the many misfortunes countless number of people encounter. Ranging from Natural disasters, Terrorism, Wars, Women, Children, Diseases, Poverty, more and more poverty etc etc. surely many more, The numbers are staggering, going into the Millions for each category, Millions each year i repeat. That already made me read further, hoping to find any nicer figures or news. YES there was, The next part was where the reporters ask 6 Religious Leaders on their views about the world, making sense outta all these bad things and what they suppose could be done. Similar views were shared, all revolving around the Peace coming from each and everyone of US to ourselves, each other, our world. It is all very simple actually.

The priest talked about the One-Person Theory, change beginning with the individual, one person to reach out and bring it forward. He touched on Singaporeans being too spoilt, lacking social sensitivity and graces, taking each other for granted in pursuit of material gains instead of looking out for one another. All of us are capable and have to just reach out to each other with compassion and empathy, dun be selfish, be selfless, light up the light of other people.

The Buddhist nun talked about Karma ( as expected ). Talked about man's selfishness is the root cause of the world's wars and conflicts, mother nature is working against us because of our karma for not protecting it, instead we destroy it. More and More people are getting more and more greedy, self-centred, egoistic leading to hatred and low tolerance of others. She believes Human nature can be changed. People must not harbour greed or envy but attain peace through compassion, magnanimity and respect for others. She quotes 4 Buddhist precepts to attain "Harmony with others and World Peace". First, Tolerance, man to help each other, give each other space and practise understanding and tolerance. Second, find our "non-self" break away from "me" because "me" is not real. Third, Equality, we're all born equal. Fourth, Compassion, breeds love with no expectation of any reward bringing about peace. We shouldn't covet but be compassionate.

The Muslim Imam stressed on the close relationship with God, getting to know God and understand your purpose in this world. To be close to God, we must be close to all his creations, which is each other (humans), regardless of race, creed or belief. He emphasized much about respect, accept and appreciate others and their opinions. Muslims greet each other with "Assamualaikum" which means "may peace be with you" or " may God be with you". This does not only mean peace to you, but also you have to pray for him or her.

The Taoist Priest shared about the Tao saying Peace is Man. There must be equality, just like the Yin and Yang, union and harmony is seen. Man decides for better or for worse, we're responsible for the ourselves, each other and the world, we reap what we sow. Three virtues to be cultivated are Humility, Frugality and Compassion.

The Jewish Rabbi told us about changing the world with simple deeds. Spread the light, because light dispels darkness. One candle can do a lot in a big place which is pitch dark. Imagine each person just giving a little 5 cents to charity. 4 million X 5 cents is still a lot of money isnt it. So much good can be done little by little. He mentioned about the lack of tolerance because of the lack of education which is true. Start with a purpose, change ourselves first, move on to family, friends, society, world. People confuse Joy with Fun, we can face the worst conditions but still be joyful. Happiness is what we have and not focus on what we don't have. It is the journey and not the destination that really counts in Judaism.

The Hindu Priest talked about prayers to seek peace. Man should come together and work towards a common good, do that and the divine powers will guide and help you.

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Well, Well, Well said. I absolutely agree with each and everyone of their views. They touched on simple virtues and values that each and everyone of us can learn, cultivate and practise. The only influence is how we start influencing ourselves. Why trouble ourselves with selfish thoughts when we already know it hurts not only others, but the hurt will eventually come back and haunt your own mind and soul. Throw thoughts of greed, envy, hate, anger, inflated egos out. Don't ever think you are superior or better than others. Think equality, think about learning more from others, think harmony and compassion and love, spread these values, let is shine through your actions, do your part in society by being love, spreading love. It will in turn come running back to you in quality and volumes. The more you give the more you get. What do you want to give? Love and compassion, respect and equality or hate, selfishness, judgement, ignorance, hypocrisies. Its your choice, your life, whatever you start with (actions,feelings or causes) remember it comes back to you good or bad, you decide!

I strongly urge everyone with live life with more love, forgive more, be more compassionate, lend a helping hand to those in need. Make these a habit. Let's join hands and do more good in this world yea!

Kelvin =)

Updated@12/27/2006 12:35:00 AM

Wooooosh.... 3 days of BA camp past by just that like... another 3 days of fun... i guess... not very sure about whether i shld deem it as fun... lets see why.

It all started out on Thursday. i had to report at 10 am, which i thought was the start of camp. Actually it wasn't, it was a group meet up to do some ID's thing. decorate the mini-flags and water bottles which were suppose to be our ID's. In the end, those weren't use. so i felt that it wasn't really a good idea in the first place. The other group had T-shirts which were pretty nice as they decorated it by themselves, but they had to pay extra for it. Nvm about that. we suppose to start at 12pm anyways. Expected that people were late and indeed we started late also, close to 1pm if i rmb correctly. bahhh....Not really a good start... to my day to say the least.
All was not too bad though after that had activities like bonding games, more fun and treasure hunt at night. Got to know a few more people from BA ... that is good... somemore all seem quite nice.

Second day was even more busy, Went played somemore games, went ard singapore for a hunt for food and then at night campfire. usual stuff for these sorta camp i think.Third day just prize presentation and went home. I dun wanna go into the nitty gritty's because too much to talk about. more importantly is what i thought and felt about it.

Firstly, what i thought. It was a good camp as i am sure the people who organised it made a great effort, they are the reputable BA Society afterall. like to thank them very much =). Hrmm my first camp in school... hopefully not my last... would like to organise one with other ccas =). Again, i revert back to my own introverted self. Very hard to click with those people sia. I dun think and act like them, rarely talk like them also. Many jokers around, also many quiet people around. can see that they still click with their own cliques, though their not hesitant to make new friends'. But Haha, i dunno la, maybe its just that i dunno what to talk about that's y i was so quiet. Dun wanna talk about myself much, people like them not really interested i guess. then again, they also dun seem to talk much about themselves.
Another point is that it is so different from any other camp that i went to. My secondary school camp that is, everyone can click with anyone, maybe because we are boy's and conversations are easy to come about. Somemore many share the similar interests. Like Band Camp, haha time to click and Suffer together also. easy to joke around because we already know the style of jokes. argh.. not so easy to make friend's after all. I am too serious also. I am the type who needs to get to stick ard and get to know a few people better then get comfortable and can crap ard any time. Esp when joining similar organisations or ccas because that would mean that we share the same interests, if not they won't join right. bogs down to the importance of good communication. But this time i feel that it is more then plain communication. communication can be too technical man. Its more of personal sharings and creating relationships with anyone and everyone, some people seem to do it almost instantly and others take a little more time. i feel that i am the sort that takes a little more time. I very much wish to take shorter time. Hard to change. yea.. it's the "getting-out-of-my-comfort-zone thing" also.. never easy.

Someone help me? teach me some ways to make friend's easily? esp with strangers. i wanna know that skill man, pick up that personality or character trait then i can move on to make better friends. just being myself in this case isnt helping that much at all. esp when i desire more friends.

argh..

Kelvin signing off. toddles =) p.s. ( usually it's the girls that are harder ) =)!

Updated@12/24/2006 12:36:00 AM

Woot! I am able to get into blogger after 6 hrs of trying. Bleahs...~!

Such an eventful week last week as well as this week and surely even next week. Actually, take it day by day, everyday is so eventful and satisfying.

Let's see, common tests were a breeze that just came and went. Applied the last minute effective mind mappings as well as repetition of contents in order to remember. Thankfully only 2 papers needed me to do that. The others were application and pure consistency in doing the tutorials. I can say i was pretty much prepared though cld have done better. What's done is done and hope step by step, 20% by 20%, the AD's will form as the marks accumulate.

Lets see, Friday after the paper, we sticked ard in sch then went to play Cashflow in SP. Fun Fun Fun. Got out of the Rat Race again. Saturday went out with WeiYang, long time din see him, came back for his 4 mths holiday before the start of his new term in Uni in Aussie, met up with daniel in the evening, had some prior miscommunication but easily cleared up. We met up to go watch a Magic Show titled "Magic of Love", performed by FCBC church's Pastor Lawrence and his daughter. Absolutely Amazing. Pastor also so hip, can sing, act, and do magic. Sunday was Amazing Race which wasn't all too amazing because we only completed 1 outta 10 stations. that's not the worse thing, someone (my teammate) got injured. His name is Cliff. I felt tt he deserved it in a way, some form of retribution i guess, for being really detestable among his juniors. Cycling was fun, enjoying the seaside ride with my friends which made it even better. won a consolation Lucky draw prize which was 2 movie ticks vouchers. which we used on Monday. Before the movie on Monday, Leo Club had Leo Factor. It was the first event we Sub Comms Organised. Oh what fun we had. Movie, Captain's Ball (love it). Get to talk and know each other better, esp the girls =). We are a bunch of Enthusiastic Sub Comms and we shall continue to be. Not only in Leo Club but other Same CCa's as well yea. Would like to thank my buddies josh, jackson, Ck, Kenny etc etc. all guys name because i dunno the girls really well yet =). Talk to me MORE leh girls. or maybe i shld be the one talking and mingling with you people. arh can la. =)! DeJaVu was a very nice movie wanna know the plot go www.wikipedia.com and search it by urself, dun be lazy but be wary, those are spoilers. Tuesday was a boring day, really boring, Villa Francis was kinda like a "failure" because i felt that not all of us did smthng meaningful. the Start was already quite bad. 1130am then arrive when 900am was the target time. For first timers, i guess it was quite a sight, haven seen so many old folk's who are so unhappy staying there. There really weren't many who smiled. I wldnt be happy too. Being Sick and Left alone, away from my family. not the kind of life i wld like to lead after retirement. Family love shldn't be like that at all. It should be full of life and enjoyment, after 60 to 70 yrs of hard work, old folks fully deserve the best they can ever have in their lives be it material, mental or emotional =). Hrmm.. that's abt summing up the past few days, pweett..

Oh yea, Got 1 thing of my mind for the moment. SIFE WORKPLAN. Wasn't all too easy but hey i managed to do it. I doubt it is the best but at least i did put in my best to do it. All i need is a little more guidance and evaluation would help. Room for improvement since that was the first task =). My other teammates who are in Year 3, funny man Chris and friendly man Kenrick are very busy and they act more like advisors i think. So yea i would need more help and prefer maybe a year 1 to help =). Whoever.

Today my Laptop got sick with viruses and i needed to cure it. so i went to the comp doctor in school, din help much, went to hospital which is acer centre and they just suggested a reformat of C drive and tt's what they did. Problem solved but now i feel uncomfortable, Lost my programs and some other files which i missed out on transferring to my D drive. Somemore the fonts on window's quite weird. I need to get the more impt programs like Mic Office and Macromedia boo hoo. need to spend time to install them also garr.. Nvm its ok. learnt my lesson. get rid of the problem when it occurs asap if not it will get worse as in the case i encountered garr... it ok. now everything's fine =)!

Ok it is getting rather late and i have got to attend BAMP! tml.. good night all and blog after camp! =)

Loves U people,
Kelvin!

Updated@12/20/2006 02:42:00 AM

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are not looking merely for a girl/boyfriend - you are looking for your life partner. Perhaps you should be more open-minded about who you spend time with. The person you are looking for might hide their charm under their exterior.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

This test is from the abv webby. weird test but quite true. I like it.

Updated@12/15/2006 01:32:00 PM

You are The Sun

Happiness, Content, Joy.

The meanings for the Sun are fairly simple and consistent.

Young, healthy, new, fresh. The brain is working, things that were muddled come clear, everything falls into place, and everything seems to go your way.

The Sun is ruled by the Sun, of course. This is the light that comes after the long dark night, Apollo to the Moon's Diana. A positive card, it promises you your day in the sun. Glory, gain, triumph, pleasure, truth, success. As the moon symbolized inspiration from the unconscious, from dreams, this card symbolizes discoveries made fully consciousness and wide awake. You have an understanding and enjoyment of science and math, beautifully constructed music, carefully reasoned philosophy. It is a card of intellect, clarity of mind, and feelings of youthful energy.

What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.

Found this cool stuff from Kenny's blog. Nice picture

Updated@12/10/2006 07:23:00 PM

Have not blogged for a month. Finally found time, in the middle of my Common Tests now. Having Loads to do in school, but its so fun. Shall provide updates of my schedule now. Not really stressed even though I got 4 projects due soon after the holidays. Before the Holidays i got tests, during the holidays there are competitions, camps and meetings for CCAs. I have just enough days to slot in my project meetings. other than that are maybe the weekends, that's all. After the hols, time will past even faster, only got 5 weeks to the exams. Now isnt that sucha hectic schedule. I aint complaining but I am actually happy because having so many things to do means i am using full use of the time i have on this earth to do what I want to do, it's so fufilling.

Recently, I had SpeechCraft for Toastmasters, a 1 day per week for 4 weeks "course". It is a preparation programme to my journey to better communicating skills. What they covered is based on improving on 3 types of skills required to communicate well, 1. Thinking 2. Speaking 3. Listening. I did not even know that until the last session whereby DTM Wekie said that that is exactly what the toastmaster programme is suppose to help each individual achieve. It is so true, public speaking helps improve a person's communication on the whole. We do need to inject a certain confidence each time we go out there and speak, which would wow the audience and make yourself feel that you have done something great. Public Speaking is my new found interest. It really helps one of the most important skills in life which is to communicate! That is why i wanna be a great speaker, communicating and getting my message through. In the past, I have been such an Introvert, I still am, but i wanna learn to step into extrovert grounds and public speaking seems to help me do so. I found out that if i am willing to speak, and speak blady well, people will listen and listen well. Law of Reciprocation. I am able to convey messages clearly, inspire people, persuade people, talk about people without hurting them, etc etc. During the course, I was exposed to projects, we did 1 each week and 3 in total. all of which i did not do very well in, maybe because they were suppose to be prepared speeches but i did not prepare. I was not really disciplined to find the time and practise and prepare on my own before "showtime" and having the confidence when it was time to perform. Anyway, that simply tells me i gotta buck up and practise and find another way to perform better. Speaking is just so wonderful, We should all learn how to speak properly. I like this learning process and will continue to get better and better, using Toastmasters as a platform and training ground, become a conditioned and naturally great speaker!

Hoho, another thing on self improvement, I am to finish at least 1 book per week, be it on business or personal development. either 1 of those subjects. First improving myself and the way i think and then how businesses are developed and maintain. I am gonna increase my level of business knowledge starting from now on. Of course, besides reading the books, I need to summarise them. I realise, after i read the book, i pick it up again, i cant seem to recall little or nothing. Summarising the book will allow my brain to revise and hopefully capture and retain what i read so that i can apply to situations that i come across.

Another issue is my sleeping time. For the past few weeks ( 3 or 4 ), I have been trying to figure out when is my best time to study and do work. The situation goes like this. I come home late from school almost everyday, about 9 + or after 10 pm. Once i reach home, i turn on my com, take a breather then bathe, 30 mins gone. After that i surf the net and it time passes till 11 + or 12am. By that time i feel tired and groggy, my eyes start to become blur ( i dunno what that effect is called ), my body slides down the chair and i turn back, go to the bed lie down and K.O. Ok actually, right before i K.O. , i tell myself, i will wake up at 530 am to do my work and set my alarm to that time. and 530 came. i snoozed my clock and carried on with hibernation. till 7+ or 8+ and time for school. Tutorial work is usually done during Sundays so i need not worry about rushing them. The point is that i am sleeping too much and the time can be used to maybe read up on my lectures, newspapers, and books, learning new stuff EVERYDAY. but nooooo....!!!! I know it is my fault. So i am changing strategy..... Hope it works... Will keep you in suspense on whether it works. MENTAL DISCIPLINE IS THE KEY to Unlock the door to me putting in more EFFORT for self improvement!

Ok, Let me deal with my Common Tests first then i will update more on my experiences and life events!

"You cannot tailor-make the situations in life, but you can tailor-make the attitudes to fit those situations."

Kelvin

Updated@12/09/2006 07:05:00 PM