Scribbles...

Squabble Squabble, Here's the bubble of the day! Well, Few things i would like to blog about.
1) M'sia 2) My Class postings

1) My holidays has been a thoroughly relaxed one, seriously. No Job, No income, No stress. Well, guess the time has to be filled up with something. For example, today i went to M'sia with my Papa, long time since we've gone abroad (across the causeway counted as well =P). Went to JB,Kota Tinggi, saw the waterfall, Papa said he's not been there for 20 yrs, things have changed, now they installed slides for kids to slide in and charge entrance fees (9RM for adult) to go in and block off some "dangerous areas" of the waterfall. Last time, free entry and anything goes. Ate Great stuff at Great price, Silver promfret cooked in Nonya Style, spicy hot sia, Homemade tofu, smooth and melts in your mouth and the KangKong Blachan, one of the best i've ever eaten. All for 42RM, at an open air restaurant, had that for lunch, yums. ok enough of that, bet u people are already drooling, pls wipe it off before continuing! =P!

2) Surprise Surprise, School Of Ba had something installed for us, it's called the Self Select Time Tabling. It is a process whereby ordinary students who had passed their exams, get to choose their choice of class for the next year, YEAR 2. The catch is that there is the freedom to do so and only 16 places per class is allowed. Well, It comes a blessing to some, eg Josh, while a curse to others, eg Lizhen and my class. My class wanted to "stick together team", but what happened when we selected yesterday was "team spilt up", a handful to a same class, another handful to another class, the class we wanted had its places all taken up in a matter of a few seconds, how's that for kiasu-ism. In the end, i went to class TB29, with another 4 of my other current classmates, Kwee Gek, Fabian, Linda, Ying Xi. Glad they are in my class, at least for project grouping no much of a problem, we all can work together i guess, cause my class has been really strong in project work since last year, thank God for that. Well, then naturally, we wanted to find out who is in our class, at least I wanted to, so i asked around. Josh went 28, Kenny dunno go where, Tb26 people all stick together, 10 of them in the same class, good effort. Discovered some people that i know of is also in my class, they are not so ordinary at all. We've got Sarah, Yao Zhong and Kwee Gek who scored like almost perfect GPA for last sem i think, not so sure, so it seems they are very smart. Well, that serves as a motivation to say the least. Someone else is in my class... OK, so i hope that everything will be as great as the first year and everyone will cooperate in my new and great class. Thanks to God or Fate that brought this to me.

That's all for today,

Thanks for reading,
Kelvin

Updated@3/21/2007 06:49:00 PM

Something to Blog About...

Ok, changed my blog’s skin once again, a fresh new look, a practical decision. My old blog was darn hard for people to read, so this change will mean better viewing pleasure for you guys since it is black and white, no strain to the eyes. Hope you all find it fine too, because I find the words at the top quite meaningful, resonates with my soul. Guess when u want the right thing and search for it, it will appear, so much search for more things I like, take the action to do so =).
Blogged yesterday, blogging again today, better keep up with the times. Actually yesterday I wanted to say even more things which happened, I can do it now. First up is BAOC ( School of BA Orientation Camp for the Freshmen for ur info). I got into the subcomm and Josh did not cause he was going to China to serve China, in fact almost every year 1 in leo club went or are or is going to China to Serve China in one way or another. Serve meaning community work, not exactly contributing to the economy but at least it is to the social structure and we as people cross boundaries to do our part for the less fortunate when we have the power and resources to do so, of course, not forgetting the intrinsic satisfaction and fulfillment attained after it, wish all you guys good luck and hope u learn stuff, my time will come, end of next sem hopefully. Ok enough of China, back to BAOC. So, I actually decided to tie myself down to such a commitment hoping to learn and gain something back from it. It seemed promising, as subcomms are suppose to be assistants to the main organizing committee of BAOC. Haha before I get all too negative, let’s look at what I expect to gain from it ( must have expectations, if not no direction than no point learning mah ). I wanted to see the structure of BA society, Who the people were? How are they like? What are their leadership positions? How capable are they? How do they handle situations? What was their planning process like? Many questions we raised by me and for me to see, observe, infer and answer to myself, and so I started looking out for such things. Found out that yea, indeed these people are quite capable ( of course la, if not y leaders ), have gone through planning and executing one BAOC before, they know what their suppose to do and do it, meet deadlines and complete all tasks at hand, those are what is to be done and will be done. There is hardly any sense of connection, I dun feel as though we’re working as a team together. It’s quite crippled actually, the main comm and subcomm relationship. However, that could be due to the lack of knowing each other well enough. We were just slotted in to complete tasks, tt’s it, tt’s how I feel the whole setup is like, a disjointed team. Looking on the bright side, at least their nice people, it’s just 2 mths of working together after all, short stint, so it’s alright! I will just do my job and get it over and done with, there is no sense of togetherness la.. argh.. the tasks given are also quite sai gang-ish.. not my type… gotta deal with it anyway! Well, on a good note, the subcommers are rockers, well at least those I hang out with, nick, kai hiong, yue shun, wan zhen, those I have seen and talked to more often so yea, their nice people to click and work with. Well, halfway through, hope the planning of the event is gonna a great success as it was during last year!

Well, another thing to blog about, SOE (Spirit of Entreprise) interviews. Go to www.soe.org.sg for reference. I was recommended to sign up for this activity or rather “part time job” that allows students to go about interviewing entrepreneurs who are local and own SMEs in SG. Each interview will allow me to get $100, allowed to do up to 5 at first =), simple and straightforward task. Only issue, FINDING the entrepreneurs. So far, 600 found over the past 3 yrs, the time ever since this award started. I am sure there are many more out there waiting to get this award so it’s up to us to nominate them, of course they must be willing. Well, what I expect to gain from this experience is to network with these entrepreneurs, hear their life stories, really interact with them and see who they are, they could be my model to follow for the future me to be, who knows? Well, it is just started for me, so I will first look for entrepreneurs then try to get them to be interviewed by me. In the mean time, whoever is reading my post, DO YOU HAVE ANY ENTREPRENEURS YOU KNOW THAT WANTS AND AWARD? Please contact me on msn or through the tagboard for recommendations, really appreciated it, the more the merrier, so far I only got 2 in mind. =)

OK, quite tired, shall blog another time, see at least my posts are getting here more often than usual =).

Thanks for Reading,
Kelvin

Updated@3/21/2007 12:39:00 AM

WooHoo

WhooHoo, 4^th week of holidays already, a lot has happened. Began swimming again, did not learn how to do freestyle stroke when I was young, so still dunno how to. Started learning, realized I cannot make it because my legs are so weak, end up sinking. My hand technique gotta perfect it also, but my weak legs are not helping me propel. As the saying goes, practice makes perfect, so I will practice this stroke till I get it right, it’s a process to the result, so just gotta practice. Plan to swim abt 3 X a week at least during the hols, seems like I can make it.

Ok these few days, nth much really happened. Last Saturday was quite eventful, went for the financial game thing in the CBD area organized by Daryl and Co with the other poly’s and some university, think it was NTU. It was a team effort thing, 1 team has 2 persons, my partner in my team was Josh. Met up with him finally after 1 week of his disappearance from the online world, on hiatus I guess, haha it’s been due long time ago for him and he knows it, at least he has got onto relaxing. Thought he was sick last last Sat (2 weeks back, sorry, am backtracking even more) and I was right, no wonder din see him at the Sife Sg meeting.

Speaking of which, that meeting was rocking, why do I say so? Firstly, we get to see other people in the other sife teams, get a glimpse of who these people are, who knows? We might be working with them in the future for Sife Sg projects. The whole TP team were girls, stunning. The uni teams turned up in like 2’s and 3’s, hopefully they have more members. Questions were raised about how Sife is getting along in the schools and the problems and challenges we faced. More importantly, questions with regards to recruitment were raised. I really feel that recruitment is a big problem esp in our sife team in NP. We are not blind about it, we are definitely aware about it, but we are not taking action to rectify it, that’s the issue here. It is not like we do not want to, ok I wont say WE, I DO want to rectify it, guess I have to start to initiate it. How? Will sit down and figure out, but of course bring this up to my team… haiz, shall leave this issue hanging, wanna know more about what I feel, then ask me, anyways, some of you already know what I think and how I feel. I blame no one but ourselves, esp myself if I dun start, who will? We’re on the edge really with how sife is progressing, being reduced to 8 men is depressing and w/o senior support is worse, but gotta look at solutions now, no point ranting or pms. Enough!

Met up with some of my old kakis, ok not so old, all same age. First was Paul, he’s my pri sch friend, ever since pri 1, lives near me and we used to have a lot of fun together, click very well. Ever since we changed sch, he went to St Pats and I went to SJI, we contact each other occasionally like about 3 or 6 mths once, we make it a point to do so, quite informally cause we are friends. This is called friendship maintenance. Meet ups are the best model to do so. Then usually we go eat, watch movies, play lan, go to each others house, talk cock etc etc, basically what a normal teenager will do in this modern Singapore city life. He’s doing ok in life, just some hiccups here and there but I am sure he’ll be fine, he always is, hope he gets into La Salle, sch of his choice. Another was with Daniel, my SJI friend, great drummer dude. Found out he’s doing fine in CJC, pretty punking with a rock band, 3 men rock band not bad, with a pro pro guitar girl. See him enjoying his time with his classmates and friends is good, the CJC band is doing fine too, most probably attending their concert. Hope to meet him more often, like what he said, gotta keep the friendship tight! My life is great with these few but meaningful and trustworthy friends, am talking about those who have parted to different courses and schools.

Man, gotta start on NYAA ASAP, time is running out. Esp on the recreational area, have yet to sign up for my desired one which is archery, better pick it up soon, real soon, make it a point Kelvin make it a point. Just some motivation hee. Will talk more about it next time.

Finally, for this post before I sleep, my RESULTS ARE OUT! After 1 mth of waiting, they are out! Ahha at least the sch delivered it’s promise. Yea, since I am quite open, will share my results on my blog. My previous posts were saying I was aiming for AD AD AD AD AD AD AD, sadly I did not get all AD, sadly I am not gonna be first, nor second, most probably not even third. I also did try to visualize and envision myself standing on that stage receiving an award again, hopefully I can, cause still got Chance. Well here’s how my results went, I got 2 AD’s for CATS and MIEC, 1A+ for BSTATS (heartbreak, so close yet so far), 1A for OB and 2B+’s for OCOM and CIP. The B+’s haiz, was sucha heartbreak too, if only I studied harder. My excuse was because I was sick, that affected me of course but sick doesn’t mean I could be lazy what. I suppose to fight the sickness and STUdy hard, but that night I just cldnt, no mood and no discipline, fuck me, stupid me. No point mulling over that, what’s done is done, I still deserve a pat on my back I guess, ending up with a GPA of 3.81 aint that bad right? Though it wasn’t my intention. nvm intention and conviction for 4.0 and all AD’s remain for the next 4 semesters, along with book prizes of course. For those who done well too on your own terms, congrats! For those who could do better, DO better next time, still got many chances! Whatever it is, Aim to Soar high high high!

Ok this post is mainly focused on what is happening in my life, events and all, not so emo today, so injecting of emotions is kinda restricted and controlled, sounding very technical of course with events and activities that are described, not really expressed or explained fully.

Till Next Time,

Kelvin

Updated@3/16/2007 12:48:00 AM

Aiyoyo

I have been reminded to update my blog which is much neglected for the past few weeks. I guess it’s the lack of inspiration to blog. Many times I think of the negativities that is happening throughout this holidays. It seems that I worry too much maybe, such a worry wort, argh! Oh no no no, I shouldn’t even worry, what must I worry for? Worry about things that will not turn out right? Worry that I am not capable enough to complete certain tasks that I am assigned to? Worried that I am not the best at what I do? What for, I say what for! I need Self Confidence and Self Assurance/Acceptance that I can do the things that I am asked to or tasked to do. Just Do It is the most useful phrase for me in times of my fear of not doing well. I really have to reprogram my subconscious mind, wanna make it superconscious. It already is in fact, just that I dun seem to believe in myself, my soul seems to cling onto self-doubt. I need constant reminders that I am great, wonderful and capable of completing things. Reminders such as Just Do It! Will allow me to gain confidence, move ahead and learn even more things. Sometimes, when there is too much slack time, my mind tends to wonder about too many things. I am really caught in the middle nowadays, in between the good and the bad, positives and negatives. My mind tends to sway towards the negatives for dunno what reason, maybe it is the subconscious. I somehow come to the conclusion that it is the people and how they act, feel, say that one way or another, affects me. Everyday I keep hearing people say unworthy phrases such as “ wa I think you suck man” “omg, how could you do this, so wrong man” “aiya, let it be la, wasting of time” so on and so forth. Such things makes me really SIAN and feel fucked up. I know it is me who controls how I think and feel, but naturally, when u hear shit, u think shit and feel shit. On the other hand, if we hear sweet nothings, we feel a lot of love, kindness, care etc, imagine of beautiful things as well as enjoy it. If people are going to continue talking about the negatives most of the time, they themselves will attract more of it, maybe they dunno that, but it’s true. I know I am a serious person, also, I am a feeling person, I also know that whatever I act, feel, think and do starts from ME. BUT, I try to remind people who speak of the negatives to stop it, most of the time, it doesn’t happen, speaking style is a habit after all, but I also ask them to consider how it reflects back on them. Here I am trying so very hard to make myself improve and develop in all areas of my life, and there they are troubles, worries, dilemmas, problems, not mainly about myself, but more of other people. Oh well, on a positive note, I treat those as challenges and they can be overcome and I can learn from them, only other issue is making the right choices. I can do it! I must change first! Everything starts from me, then it can overflow to others. I truly wanna beef myself up to be close immune to challenges, always positive, if not 90% always aint that bad either, make things right, solve problems, create value my one and only (I think so) life. After that, it is the other people. I must be able to deal with people, communicate well with them, know what they want and listen, think and consider first before I react or act back. haha becoming a good person is not easy man, becoming a great person is even harder. Great person not only for myself of course, I must be selfless and think of others, I wanna share with others what I learnt, whether or not they wanna learn and take it seriously, is absolutely their choice, all I can do as a friend is to advice, tell them what I feel and hopefully they will be as accepting. Haiz, there are so many things left to do, yet undone. Not that I cannot do it by myself, just that we all should work as a team, some of you might know what i am saying. Can we all just work fine, i am starting to lose confidence in that aspect.

Signing off,
Kelvin

Updated@3/10/2007 05:33:00 PM